the beginning of the year.. my life felt like a fairy tale.

and now

kaboom

its all exploding in my face and its my fault.
i really just wish everything could be said and done..and over with. 
hurting people was never my goal and now everyone makes it out to be that im a terrible person and that im such a bitch. 

i wanna just crawl into a hole and never come out. ever.

im truly sorry that i didnt think before i acted.
i can try and blame it on alcohol.. but it wasnt 100% the case.

im sorry to those i hurt.
i’m sorry to the friends i’ve lost this year.
and to the people i’ve disappointed.
i’m sorry that i couldn’t be a better person and a better friend.

but here is to new beginnings.

here is to new friends and a fresh start.
i can try and dwell on these things.
but that will get me no where. and i want to GO somewhere with my life. 
i will try and be a better person, i will try and be a better friend, and i will try and be something!